okay, so all throughout my trip i've been in such a blogging mood!

but now that i finally get access to a computer.... i dont know what to say. and, suddenly, i'm outta my blogging mood.

which sucks, because i prolly wont get to a computer until i get back on the 16th. which is i fine w/ me, actually.

soooo, im in washington, yay. we flew down to wenatchee around 5. went shopping for a lil bit, drove to the drag races. drove up to okanogan, it took about 3 1/2 hours... ugh. didn't get to our property until around 3:00am. since we only have our garage built on our property we stayed in our trailer that my dad bought last year. the next day, emily and i spent all day tanning [i even got a tiny tan!] until around 5 or 6 when we all went shopping in the next biggest town: omak.

never heard of it? not surprised lol, you prolly wont hear of a bunch of towns that i'll mention. they're all really small towns, most smaller than sitka.

anyways, around 6 we went over to a friend of my dads until like 10. drove back to the property. in the morning we started our drive to my uncles house in olala near seattle. the drive was about 6 hours.

now im here!

woohoo.

"How about this for a fashion show?

Nn one side of the runway, you've got models wearing the trendy clothes kids spend their hard-earned money on. Crusing down the other side, you've got the poverty stricken youth from southeast asia who make this "must have" collection. The contrast should be enlightening-or maybe just embarrassing.

Doesn't anyone else care about the increasing gap between the haves and have-nots? Millions of people wearing the finest clothes, eating the best food, driving the fastest cars, while most of the worlds population eat a small bowl of food, then sleep on a mat for a few hours, resting up for another eighteen-hour workday.

Did you know that HALF of the SIX BILLION people on the planet live on less that TWO DOLLARS a day? The price of a cup of designer coffee at Starbucks. Makes me sick just thinking about it.

Our STUFF lives better than most of the PEOPLE in the world do.

To say nothing of how we're treating nature. Drill for oil in the Arctic Circle? Why not. Rich white men need to get richer, don they? Drop the emission standards so gas companies can turn a bigger profit? Sure! Why worry about the ozone layer when we've got stockholders to think about?
Nature is going to mutiny one of these days-giant earthquakes or floods just to evict our sorry asses.

I mean, doesn't anyone remember the Lorax? Who is speaking for the trees these days? We're producing and consuming ourselves into oblivion, completely out of touch with th real world, the natural world. If your life depended on it, could you tell what time it was by the sun? Could you find north without a compass? Could you tell the difference between a white oak and a red maple? Didn't think so.

We're not fit to live in the world anymore: we're tourists, clear-cutting our way across the planet till nothing's left.

(in case you're interested, the maples the one with the wide three-pointed leaves.)"

this was an entry from a new book im readign called "the gospel, according to larry".

this guy goes under a fake name... larry... and he writes these sermons just about anything, basically. his own view and opinions. i really liked this one in particular.

it reminds me of a song that i looooove called crazy by simple plan.

here's the lyrics:

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop 'til they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

CHORUS
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's world war III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
Money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

CHORUS

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

CHORUS

something is wrong
Is everybody going Crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

okay so i totally was being a hermit on my two days off this week and it really sucks!

mostly because there are people leaving who i'll never see again [foreign exchange students *sniff*], people leaving who i might never see again [kelsea, sean and tyler], people i haven't hung out w/ in a while [nathan, karimae, eva, etc.] and people who i might not see until i get back from my vacation [basically everyone else i haven't mentioned].

sooo instead of hanging out w/ people i've been:

cleaning a lot

going online

watchin tv

reading a lot

going online

eating

doing little projects [rearanging my room, makin new collages, updating my site, finding new inspiration for clothes n such haha, trying to get pics of my friends to frame like the frame i got in 8th grade from berett, etc]

listening to music

GOING ONLINE.

haha, i guess im just being really lazy but it still sucks hardcore!

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sooo you can imagine my excitement when lisa called on thursday night after open gym and told me that she was having a bonfire w/ kelsea, jordyn, sean, tyler and nick and i should come over! i asked my mom if i could and we decided that it would be fine if i slept over there so she wouldn't be up late worrying about me. so then i told her about the doctors appointment my dad scheduled for me on friday morning and asked if she could pick me up around 9:20 to take me to it.

well, she FREAKED OUT! she got really pissed and started yelling at me. why?

because she felt excluded, like we were trying to sneak this appointment behind her back. she was sooo miffed that dad, caprice and i knew about it before she did. she kept telling me that SHE was the mom. that SHE was responsible for doing the doctors appointments. that SHE should be the first to know. that MY DAD never took interest in our lives until now and that he PURPOSELY didn't tell her. she blamed caprice for my dad suddenly wanting to be apart of our appointments [by appointments, i mean both my doctors appointment, emily's doctors appointment and her therepy appointments, emilys dentist appointment to get a tooth fixed, emilys appointment to get insoles to help her knee problems, and more. those all were appointments my dad setup for us and we forgot to tell mom about them].

then she told me to just go, to leave and go to lisa's house.

i told her that i wasn't going to go w/ her so mad at me. i told her that we didn't pursposely not tell her. i told her that she was making too big of a deal about it.

but she kept yelling at me about all this CRAP.

so, basically, i tried to be reasonable about it but soon it was really hard to hold back tears so i went to my room and broke down. when i got ahold of myself i called my dad to cancel the appointment because it made my mom so upset. as soon as i was telling my dad about canceling, i started crying again. of course, dad got very worried and right then, my mom came in my room at took the phone away from me and started yelling at my dad. and of course, my dad started yelling back and so did caprice [yes i know, i was shocked too].

pretty soon i couldnt take it anymore so i went outside. soon afterwards, emily came and sat next to me until my mom came out.

she explained why she was upset and apalogized for making me cry. but she didn't apalogize for blowing up and yelling.

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okay, so fastforward to this morning. i got up around 10:30 and was ready by 11 to go quading w/ my family and lisa. we were going to kruzoff for the day. buuuut, around 11:15, our boat motor was being a bitch so dad and caprice worked on it while i kept calling lisa and telling her the updates on our day and such.

by 1:45, lisa called and said that it was taking too long and she couldn't go anymore. by 2:30 i told my parents that i no longer wanted to wait around while they fixed the motor and that i wanted to hang out w/ lisa and go to the movies n such.

they said i could hang out w/ lisa as long as her mom was home because they would be gone all day. so i called lisa and her mom answered. i asked for lisa and she told me that lisa was on restriction for the day and coudln't do anything and that she would call me tomorrow.

so basically, my plans were completely ruined. so i couldn't hang out w/ anyone unless i was at their house w/ their parents home which was basically......... no one.

soooo, i came over to my moms house to spend the day. granted, i got to her house aound 3 so i didin't really do much. i watched the end of a movie w/ her and kevin and right now im just online.

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sooo i went from having a completely booked saturday to nothing going on at all. im prolly gonna go downtown and see danielle at work and see if she wants to come watch a movie w/ me or something... idk yet.